My third and final year of university

I still can't get over the fact that I have one year left in education before I go off on my own... I feel lost during the summer holidays let alone the thought of not returning! I like to think that I am an independent person, however I have times where I'm very dependent of others. Education is something that I've always depended on as I struggle to set tasks for myself outside of university where I will need to do that for myself once I've left and find people to work for. 

From my two years at university I have learnt A LOT. Not just about photography, the use of a camera, etc but also who I am as a photographer and person. I've discovered areas of photography which aren't for me and other areas that I love to work in. Documentary is one style that I notice seems to follow me in my work without me realising until now. I've also discovered that as confident as I think I am, I'm actually a very shy person. I want to improve this as I continue my studies and later practise. It's no good being shy when I need to build contacts and make clients feel comfortable. 

When I began university I knew of the very basics, literally the push of a button. I was never taught about ISO, shutter speed or aperture properly. Histograms where never mentioned and I'd never used a studio/ studio lighting. Looking back if I had enough interest I would have researched into the practise and found for myself how it all works. But I never did which really set me back, especially in comparison to those who knew so much already in year. 

Two years on I now know how to use studio lighting and basic set ups for the studio. I now know more than just the basics on Photoshop when adjusting my photos. I can take photographs based on the lighting I'm working with by adjusting the set ups of ISO, shutter speed and aperture. 

Even though I have learnt so much I know there is still more to learn. I still feel slightly behind everyone else but it is very obvious that they will succeed in Photography because of their passion and motivation. 

I would really like to show my true potential this year. I need to leave university feeling confident that I will be prepared for the future without the concern that I am not ready to work alone without the guidance and help of students and tutors.